The First Time I Tried Ranting Here

Playing: My World Needs You by Kirk Franklin x Sarah Reeves, Tasha Cobbs, Tamela Mann

See the picture above? That's how I feel right now as I type.

'Will they like it?' 'What if I rant nonsense?' 'What if I do this and don't do that?' 'Iyanu, are you even a writer at all?'😞

But eh, I think that's what made me disappear the first time about 3 years ago. Doubts, not being sure about my work, wondering if being here would actually make sense. Then I stopped and didn't come back until 2017. Then left again. Now I'm here, in 2019!

Hallelujah?! No? Anybody? OK.

So over the years, I've been trying to find myself. Know what I'm supposed to do. Even if I got my childhood friend Elijah Ajibade to help me with the creation of this blog, I didn't exactly know what I was going to blog about.

I was disorientated for a while. (Is disorientated even a valid word?) I mean, there had to be a reason why people would come back, yeah? Now I think I should have just started. Like Nike, Just Do It. 

At a point I wanted to 'Spiritualise' my posts, leaving little parts about myself out. But I've come to realise that even though God owns us, he expects us even more to be very real. Very very real. With Him, with ourselves, with the people we deal with. No grey areas.

So that's what we'll be doing now! I'm going to talk about everything 😆

Everything I've learned about this girl Iyanu, and about all the things I've learned that have helped me reach this point. Don't worry we'll talk about new stuff and gossip about some of the people I know😂

Disclaimer: I can be boring o 😩 but that's only because I'm a writer sometimes and other times, I really am not😴

BTW, I now have a kitten. So call me CatWoman please, OK? 🐈👧

I do hope you stay. I need you, hmm?